So, this is my first time blogging.  I’m hoping this online “diary” will help me.  I am a new mother (for the second time).  My son is 3 and my daughter is 4 weeks today.  Here’s alittle background.  Money is tight – it has been for a few months.  I was 6 1/2 months pregnant when my job cut my hours and took my insurance.  So, while looking for a new job, we put a lot on the credit cards to make ends meet.  I found a new job 7 weeks before delivery.  So, money is coming back in, but I feel like I can not catch up.  I have been working since 3 days after my daughter was born.  My son is jealous and I know this, but  does he have to make me feel like the worst person in the world?  He throws things, yells and “I am not his friend.”  He’s 3 and this should not bother me, but it does.  I know I’m hormonal.  My husband tells me this all day long.  I just trying to figure out if I feel overwhelmed due to life or just giving birth.  Hopefully this feeling of hopelessness does not last for long.  Am I a bad mother and wife for feeling overwhelmed and not in control of my life?  Let’s see what today brings.